Part 3

I am in a jail cell. I do not know what time it is. It is always bright in here. Parsons are here. O'Brien is a party member.

I am being torturing me. O'Brien dose not cause my pain. He takes it away. He told me that Julia betrayed me immediately.

O'Brien told me the parties motives. He says the party can alter the stars and universe if needed. He made me look in a mirror. This is his fault. At the end, he tells me, I will be shot.

I Try to force myself to believe that I love Big Brother. But I do not. I yelled Julia's name over and over. O'Brien arrived and I told him I hate Big Brother. I wanted to die hating the party. I was then taken to room 101.

In room 101 rats are placed next to my face. I am reminded of my dream. O'Brien forces me to betray Julia.

I believe in everything Big Brother says. I know 2+2=5. Big Brother is right. I love Big Brother.

Part 2

The dark haired girl had her arm in a sling. She fell near me and gave me a note. I helped her up and she gave me a note. It said I love you. We met in Victory Square and held hands briefly.

I met up with the dark haired girl in the country. She said her name is Julia. We had sex. She had sex hundreds of times.

Julia said we could have sex again in a month. We met in a ruined church. She said the party is against sex to channel frustrations of people. I told her about the walk when I thought about killing my wife.

I rented the room above Mr. Charringtons shop for me and Julia. We had not met in a while. I watched her put on makeup. She is beautiful.

Syme disappeared like I thought. I told Julia about O'Brien. I want to marry her but can't because Katherine is still alive.

I finally met with O'Brien in the hallway. He gave me his address and told me i can read the Newspeek dictionary. I feel I will end up at the Ministry of Love and be vaporized.

I remembered my mother. I think I killed her. Me and Julia fear torture for our acts. We will never stop loving each other.

Julia and I made it to O'Brien's house. He turned off the telescreen. I said that I want to be a part of the Brotherhood. O'Brien says we will meet again.

I'm exhausted. Oceania has switched allies once again. In Mr. Charringtons room Julia and I began Reading Goldsteins book. We both fell asleep.

Julia and I were heard talking by a telescreen hidden behind the picture of St. Clements church. Mr. Charrington was a member of the thought police. Troops rushed in and caught us.

Part 1

The lift wasn't working. My ulcer is hurting. I still don't remember my childhood. I enjoyed the ship bombing film last night. Think the Junior Anti-Sex League girl is a Thought Police spy.

Ive committed a very bad Thought crime. The neighbor Mrs. Parsons nearly caught me. Was then tormented by her Junior spies. She seemed afraid of them. Had a dream. O'Brien talked to me.

Had another dream. This time with my mother. I think her disappearance is my fault. Thought of The Golden Country. I was there and the dark haired girl took of her cloths. Woke thinking of the word shakespear.

Changed a speech today. Since Comrade Withers was vaporized changed his name to Ogilvy.

Had lunch with Syme. He said Newspeek is going to narrow all thought. He is very intelligent. He will one day be vaporized. I think the dark haired girl s spying on me.

I remember sex with a prole prostitute. The party hates sex. They want to remove its pleasuer. They want to make it a duty. I want to enjoy it.

The proles are the key to rebellion. Not even the Brotherhood can do it alone. I remember finding the photo disproving those mens' treason. The party is dishonest. 2+2=4.

I met an old man. He was a prole, and could not remember the past. I bought a paperweight. The dark haired girl followed me again.